Hear it, hear it, ticking, ticking

This ticking may well just be the sound of my life slowly running out of time, my Trials start in 5 days. First HSC exam in 10. Holyshitbitchdienow.
Spent my computer lesson at school looking for more shoes online, time well spent I'd say. Here's my urbanoutfitters hoard which FINALLY decided to arrive, after 3 weeks of waiting.
Nothing exciting in my life right now, I guess I'll be back sometime soon to rage about school and how nonchalant my attitude is to school now. Whoopee.

Neglect (plus maybe a bit of reclusiveness)

I have partaken in massive neglect of this blog, which actually makes me a bit upset, as I promised myself that I would try and post at least 3 times a week. Yeah...it's been a week since I last posted. Some things my week has consisted of:

• School. Not fun.
• Study
• Work
• Tumblring
• Taking photos of nature and my neighbour's cat
• Mix tapes (cd's to be precise)
  
• Dinners in the city
• West Side Story in the Lyric Theatre
• Musical playlists
• Live from Abbey Road
• New journals
• New music
• New books
• New friends
  
• Awaiting the ever-so-late urbanoutfitters order, it will be three weeks on Wednesday. Not happy Jan.

Trials are up and coming next week, although I have my Japanese speaking Trial in 3 days. Eep. Something I learnt today: My mum has all these liberty hair ribbons and bows, which I always wear. I found out today that I always wear the clips upside down. Whoops :)
And here we are! Some pictures of my week!
I'll be back on Tuesday night to rant about how poorly I performed in my Japanese exam.

Spring Awakening

First of all, the songs that I'm obsessed with at the moment include:

• Mama Who Bore Me (Reprise) - Spring Awakening (This is thanks to my friend Dillon, who originally showed me the music)
• Any Day Now - Oak & Willow. I have to listen to their music on Myspace, as I can't find a site slash program to download them. Grr.
• I Wish - Stevie Wonder
• Because We're Dead - Slow Club
• Buffalo Country - Cloud Control. I have to be honest and say that I like the live version they did on Oxford Street better than the actual version. Why? I don't even know, they're just amazing live. Here's Buffalo Country live, and here's another live song they did called Gold Canary in BCS

Other things in my life right now include study...ummm...study, and...oh look, more study. How. Fun.
School's back tomorrow, shoot me dead. Japanese oral HSC exam is in 2 weeks, and Trials in 3 weeks.
Here's my crib until Saturday, thank you Hannah for going to New Zealand for a week, and granting me free reign over your room. I can assure you that my parents weren't too happy about not being able to keep an eye on me, as my sister's room is located out the back of my house. Lovely and secluded.

Home alone and happy

I'd forgotten how much I love Emiliana Torrini. Honestly, her voice and music is so amazing, I can't believe I went without listening to her for so long!
Also featuring on Maddy's Top Rated on iTunes is a band from Victoria called Oak & Willows. Listen. Be amazed. This is all.
Here is Heartstopper by Emiliana Torrini.

Violence against loneliness is not violence at all

Spent the day today just chilling, having a bit of a break from study. I've been working myself too hard, and my brain is just overloading, eep.
I had a bit of a shit morning, so my friend turned up on my doorstep with a hug and comfort food, I honestly love her to death.
Webcammed with my favourite lady, we watched each other play games, I played Zelda and she played Tomb Raider, and yes, we're THAT cool :)
Nothing much else to do tonight, back to studying tomorrow, eugh.
I just feel so blergh, all the time. And I know people have a worse off life than me, so I shouldn't be complaining. So forgive me as I wallow in self pity.

Defy Gravity!

Neglecting my blog, always a sign of study...or more like procrastination. Last time I blogged was Sunday, so 3 days isn't very good in my mind.
But honestly? My life's just been too boring to blog about.
Monday I had a 'study day' at a friend's house; ended up just drinking copious amounts of tea and stalking people on facebook, ya know, the usual deal.
Tuesday I just stayed at home and studied until work from 3-7. Pretty shit night after that, don't worry, I won't go into details though.
And today...3 guesses what I did. Yep. Got it in one. Stayed home and studied. Had a bit of a breakdown from stress this morning, my mum thinks I'm overworking myself. I just think 'trialstrialstrialstrialstrials'. Guess who's mind won?
However, I saw Wicked for the 4th time tonight! Dinner at Criniti's at Darling Harbour, then off to the Capitol Theatre. A quick flash of my ID earned me an Ozmopolitan, first time I've used my legality to purchase an alcoholic beverage :)
Most amazing musical of my life. I cannot wait to see West Side Story on Tuesday night, then Mary Poppins on the 12th of August in Melbourne!
I have no other photo to post, so here's what I wore tonight. Best night of my life when a cute boy came up to me on the train and told me that he loved my blazer and brogues. Random acts of kindness make my life.
Please ignore my horrible legs, I'm working on them. Kaythanks.

Just wreaking havoc like tumblarians do

Last night was pretty cool if I do say so myself. Started off at Gabbie's house, everyone chatting and smoking and eating some grub. Then we took to the streets. Drag racing between Lora and Dillon was quite amusing, especially when Dillon took us the wrong way. We hit up Dural Maccas, all 8 of us, and I had some lovely awkward encounters with a whole bunch of girls from my grade, while in a very tipsy state. After wreaking havoc in the kid's playroom (and using the free wi-fi to tumble of course) we headed off home, Dillon again, leading us the wrong way. Finished the night off at Gabbie's and then I went home! Really was one of the best nights so far :)
I honestly enjoy spending time with kids from out of school; they're all so different and I fit in better with them anyway. I look forward to doing it again!
Missed my alarm this morning, slept until 10, went to soccer feeling very sick (I have a cold, blergh), and am now just chilling at home. I might go and play some piano, I really need some new music for it!
The picture is of the girls in Maccas, god only knows where the guys went haha.

I couldn't help crashing sorry, my friend was being a hampster!

Last night was sooooo much fun it's unbelievable. We didn't even end up drinking, but I swear we were high or something...
We all met up at Epping station, it was so good to see my friends who I hadn't seen in years, and to meet a lovely new friend! Lora was lovely and drove us into Newtown, got a bit lost on the way around the Cross, but it was cool and we sorted it out. Ordered dinner once we got to our Thai restaurant, and the talking began. We were sitting there chatting and laughing our heads off for about 3 hours maybe? I feel sorry for the restaurant; thank god water is free because I think we used up all of theirs :) God only knows what we talked about; primary school memories, high school rebellious acts, sex ed classes, and throwing people into fences were just some of the strange topics.
Meexs gave me a record of The Beatles, which is absolutely splendid and is playing as I'm typing this, Blackbird is on right now. Gabbie gave me the book Looking For Alaska, which I have been wanting for a while, so that was amazing and thoughtful :) Hannah said mine's coming on Saturday, which I'm very excited and intrigued for :)
Overall it was just an amazing night, and we all had so much fun, so I hope we can do it again sometime :) I came home so happy, best feeling of my life.

Hey adulthood!

So I'm finally 18! It was my birthday yesterday, and I spent a good portion of it sitting at the hairdressers, chatting to the gay boy who works there about fashion and which clubs I should go to, while getting my hair done of course. Received some lovely presents from friends and family, won't go through them now, but I will tell you that I got about 18 books. That was amazing! Last night I had a gathering at my house, about 22 people including me, just a mocktail party as most of the kiddos are still 17. Everyone just chilled and had fun taking lots of photos; it was a good de-stressor from study. Here's a picture of me and a few friends, I'm obviously the one laughing my head off at god only knows what. And then the other one is all us kids in my room; they all seemed enticed by the enormous amount of books that preside in my room, as well as my 'stripey wall'.
Woke up this morning with a blocked nose and sore throat, not really a lovely way to start the day. I've been dosing up on a plethora of lemon tea to soothe my throat, and I think I've consumed enough Vitamin C tablets to last me a life time (it's not my fault that they taste so yummy!). Hopefully I'll be feeling better tonight, as I'm off to Newtown with some great girls for dinner and drinks. We're being classy and drinking on the train though, at least I can now say that I'm legal :)
While I'm spilling my life story to no one, I may as well tell you what I'm wearing tonight, as I'm very excited slash nervous about how it will look. A vintage navy blue VELVET (yes, velvet) blazer, 3/4 sleeved black top with ruffled sleeves, high waisted navy skirt, stockings, and my lovely lace up boots. I've never worn this blazer before, so hopefully it will look ok!

I need to get out more

I swear sometimes that I'm the biggest recluse known to man. It's not that I want to stay at home all day, rather that the people that I actually want to spend time with, already have plans. I don't do much with my group anymore, and the ones that I love the most go to a different school.
It's not much fun when you're stuck at home on a Sunday night, with nothing better to do.
However, there's another reason that's snuck its way into my thoughts. Trials are in 5 weeks.
Everytime I go to organise something, this little thought flashes into my brain, and I immediately have a slight internal panic attack at the fact that they're so soon. So then I make an excuse not to go out, just so that I can study.
I'm 18 in 3 days though, this is a bit of a win, wednesday and thursday and saturday should be the best days of my life.
This photograph by Jenny Holzer really describes my current attitude towards life. Hoorah for artists explaining things that I can never seem to form the words for.

Nothing a little Laura Marling and a cup of tea can't cure

Interesting night last night, I'm sure my drunken antics managed to amuse someone other than myself (here's to hoping). Text messages to friends who are very understanding, voicemail messages to people who didn't show, and being pro at acting sober in the car with my dad. Successful night? Yeah, I think so.
Hey headache, I was expecting you. But I'm sure it was all worth it, I entertained many people, and that's all I wanted!
This isn't the best photo, but it's the only one so far! We were all looking at another camera, and someone snuck a shot in.

Don't you hate it when ModCloth sneaks up on you?

I know you can't see it very well, but here I am, actually working on my ancient assignment, and Modcloth sneakily places ads at the bottom of my page, tempting me to visit their lovely site and spend my recent pay. This is so rude. And yet, so tempting.

Things that I truly miss and what I'm looking forward to

Please allow me one post to be all sentimental and shit, it doesn't happen often.
What do I miss? I miss the small things. Spending more time with my sister, the sheer innocence of youth, a stress free life, a life without hurt, being able to have fun all day and every day and not worry about the consequences that tomorrow will bring. I miss not having to make decisions in my life, I'm the most indecisive person you will ever meet, and the consequences are just starting to come into effect. Honestly? I miss living in Wagga Wagga, where I was born. I miss not seeing my family everyday like I used to when I was a kid. I miss the thought that anything could make me happy. I miss the go with the flow attitude that all younger kids have. In short, I miss my REAL life, not this fake one that I'm leading now.

What am I looking forward to? Change. That's it summed up in one word. New people, new places, new experiences. I want to leave high school and just forget it, start completely afresh. I'm looking forward to uni, and going to England, hopefully living in England one day. I'm looking forward to the surprises life will bring. And that's about it.

I guess I'm just your typical teenage girl. How unindividual.